Panicking...

So the very few people that read this, knows I recently went to apply for a job where my sisters works as a cashier. That was a pretty awkward experience, I bit all my nails & even tripped UP the stairs in front of everyone to laugh. But that being said, afterwards they said they would call wednesday...& that was driving me crazy. The thought of having to talk on the phone with some stranger made me hyperventilate. But they didn't call, so I thought maybe I wont get the job...which i was happy & sad about (because I need money for my disney trip) But anyway they called today & i start training on monday. Thankfully my sister will train me monday, but the second day some random stranger will be training me & i have never been so nervous. Like its stupid I get it, but i cant help it. I'm socially awkward in so many ways, & the thought of having this person (who is a boy & whos cute) watching me & talking to me makes me nervous. Like ugh....How am I supposed to get through this day. & to top it all off my sister wont be there which makes everything worse. I'm just scared & its something that has been on my mind all day...

Hopefully it wont be that bad (even though I know it will )

Xoxo That girl Dee....

Money, money, money...

Recently at the ripe old age of 17 I've started to realize how important money is & how it controls everything. You must think wow how stupid can I be? & you're right. But I always knew you needed money for everything & all that, but I guess you can say I've learned the value of a dollar. Ever since I could remember my mom told my siblings & I that she doesn't care about us getting jobs as long as we're working hard in school & getting good grades...& I've been doing that. Going to a private school that has a reputation for veiny hard takes a toll on a person. I've always studied & got good grades & I couldn't imagine having a time for a job. All my friends who do have jobs barely have time to study & were borderline failing & I couldn't imagine that being me. My mom would always give me money here & there whenever I needed it, I usually saved my Christmas money & my birthday money & would use that if I needed anything. But I don't really buy things because I wear a uniform to school, I still fit into my really old jeans so I'm good. But this summer was different. I actually needed contacts, & I wanted to get my hair done & all this stuff but my mom has been going through money troubles lately. We're not poor & we're not rich, we're like middle class. But my moms a single mother with 4 kids & she's retired, & she's been having a lot of trouble with my dad with the child support so things have been a little difficult. Especially with one kid in college & one in private school things aren't easy. So I'm starting to realize that I want, want, want...but I have nothing to give. My family also planned a trip to Orlando Florida, to go to Disney & Universal & all these places & I could tell my moms a little stressed about all the money,& I feel Terrible. I've started to see that I can't keep on depending on my sister, my mom or my grandma for money anymore, I'm 17 & it's time to grow up...so I've decided to get a job. You guys must think "wow she's lazy, 17 & no job?" We'll that's not the case. I'm going to talk about this more in a future post but I'm incredibly awkward & social situations give me anxiety.& that's what a  job is, interacting with people while doing a service for mula. Well any job a 17 year old girl with no experience can get. So that's what I've been stressing about for the past few weeks. 

So what's the lesson here kids? Money is the key to everything... 

Xoxo that girl Dee. 

Daily Advice #2: Don't be afraid to be yourself.

This is something I truly believe in more than anything. I know many girls are afraid to be themselves & do things that make them happy because they're afraid of being judged...but dont. It's your life, do what makes you happy, live it the way you want to live it. The people around you who constantly judge you are people who's opinion shouldn't matter. 

listen to Amy Poehler & I. 

xoxo That Girl Dee :)

I HATE BEING A GIRL...CRAMPS.

I honestly think this might be a weekly post, discussing the numerous reasons why I hate being a girl. But lets start with the first pretty obvious reason (especially since it's been bothering me all day) my 'period'. I seriously just want to write a single incredibly long post about PMSing because the older i've gotten the more I noticed it & the worse it is. I get angry at people for no reason, I cry over the stupidest things, I feel so depressed & upset & I cant even tell you why...but again we'll save that for another time. Whats really bothering me now is CRAMPS. I know some (very lucky) girls dont get them as bad as others, but because I've inherited the lovely trait from my mother my cramps are incredibly bad. Like i honestly feel theres 2 tiny ninjas having a japanese sword fight inside my uterus ( did i paint a colorful picture?) The first few days are the worst, which i like to spend laying on the floor in the fetal position. Cramps make girls miserable & just feel plain icky & gross, & it pisses me off that boys dont understand at all. Why can't they all be like Ashton Kutcher in No Strings Attached (great movie, you should watch it) & make us a period mix tape & brings us chocolates & all nice things. Since I have cramps so bad i'm going to tell you a few ways to make the cramps a little less painful.

• MIDOL- it works like a lot. Basically my savior during this time of the month. 
• VITAMINS- I know theres a few vitamins that you could take once a day that will ease the pain when its your time of the month, & it really works. I've tried it & i remember not really feeling the cramps the first day. But my adhd kicked in & i would forget them. But you really really should try to take vitamins, like centrism & Vitamin D. 
• HEATING PAD- either on your stomach or your lower back is very helpful. 
• HOT TEA- makes everything better. 
• & last but not least EAT LOTS OF CHOCOLATE- because what cant chocolate do? 

I hope you read this & try some of these out, let me know if it works :)

xoxo that girl Dee :)

Daily Image: True Love

This is something i found browsing on google & I really liked it a lot. Being a hopeless romantic & having parents that are divorced I always said that the guy I marry will be the guy I spend the rest of my life with. I know that life doesn't always work out that way. It's crazy to think how 'normal' divorce is now a days. But I'm going to make sure that the man I marry will be worth all the stress & problems in the future.

I already know the 3 questions I have to ask myself about the man I love:

1. Will he make a good father?
2. Will he still think i'm beautiful in the morning? (which is important because we all dont wake up looking like models.) 
3. Can I see myself with him 50 years from now still in love as if were the first day we met? 

You might think I seem a little delusional but true love is very rare now a days, & I believe once you have it & you believe its real you should do whatever you can to keep it. 

15 years from now i'll update you on my romance situation while im sitting at home on my laptop surrounded by my 27 cats, but i hope you all have better luck. 

xoxo That Girl Dee :) 

Athazagoraphobia- fear to be forgotten, ignored or abandoned

In my last post I vented about my sucky day but I also mentioned that i've moved a few years ago from point A to Point B. But 3 years ago when I started to go to high school in Point B, which meant ending all ties to point A. Leaving my friends & all the people that I cared about. Since Point A & B aren't to far apart it isn't hard to go & visit but its complicated. All my friends in Point A moved on, they have their own friends & lives that i'm not apart of. I know that i'm not the only one in this situation whatever it may be, moving, or going to different schools we've all left people that meant so much to us & its hard....believe me I know. Seeing my old friends with new ones hurts...& theres nothing I could do about it. For a very long time it was really hard to let go of my past & my friends. I remember so many times fighting with my old best friend because she was slowly forgetting me, she was moving on...something I was unable to do until about the beginning of this year. When I was able to accept the fact that things wouldn't be the same with me & my old friends, i wouldn't be able to have the relationship & the life that I did before. And when I did that I was able to meet new friends & finally move on. Of course every once in a while we would visit each other & pick up where we left off, but it wasn't really like how we used to be, & i was okay with that. She'd tell me what was going on in her life & id have no clue who she was talking about because it was about people she met in high school, people I didnt know. But again I finally moved on & finally it didn't hurt anymore seeing pictures of her with her new friends & her life, because i had my own.

So if any of you are going through what I did, I promise you its gets better. & its okay to let go & move on... If you need any help or advice on the subjectt let me know :) 

xoxo that girl Dee.

Can We Dance- The Vamps

heres a great song by The Vamps, an english band that isn't really that well known yet. They're really great & the songs so catchy, its been stuck in my head for weeks. So check it out :)
Can We Dance- The Vamps

xoxo That girl Dee :)

Daily Advice #1: Take Chances

Don't be afraid to take risks, do the things you could never imagine yourself doing. Talk to a boy first, join a club, try out for a sport. Put yourself out there, because you'll never know what you're missing out on. :)

xoxo That Girl Dee. :)

For all you Hot Heads out there...

Having ADHD & just being a regular hot head it doesn't take much to get me angry. Probably over stupid things & nonsense. When i was younger it was a lot harder to control, a small fight with my mom or my siblings & i'd be screaming on the top of my lungs trying to make a point or something. But as I got older things started to change. I grew up & matured. But still there are times when I cant help but scream into my pillow trying to release my frustrations. But I've notice theres better ways to keep calm & let your emotions out, not just anger but a lot of others too. And as stupid as you think these ideas are you should try them cause they could help.

• Write in a journal, or a blog;)- express all your feelings out on to paper instead of keeping them bottled up. You could even try writing a letter to the person that you angery at or upset with & you dont even have to give it to them or send them. 
• Also on the topic of writing, Wattpad is a great site to let your imagination run wild. Creating stories that you've thought of & created could help with calming you down. 
• Listen to music- put in some headphones & blast the music. Its a way to just get lost in your favorite songs & let go of all the anger & hurt that you feel. 
• Read a book- my favorite escape from reality & all the problems I have. 
• Talk to someone- vent out all your frustrations & feelings. 
• Take a shower- as odd as it sounds it cold be a time where you just figure out all your thoughts & rationalize what you're feeling without anyone disturbing you. 

But thats all I have for right now, maybe i'll take my own advice. I hope you do too :) 

xoxo That Girl Dee. 

Miley Cyrus Please Stop...

Sunday, August 25 was the 2013 MTV VMA awards & even if you were a monk with no modern technology you would still know how disturbing Miley Cyrus' performance was. I'm a big fan of all music, I even enjoyed her weird music video...but this was just to much. She basically tweaked & humped a foam finger half the time...oh we cant forget her constantly sticking out her tongue. All I know is that it was a little much...but tell me what you think:)

Smith family reaction to this wonderful performance...

xoxo That girl Dee :) 

Conflicted...

As teenagers starting around the age of 16 you're expected to have in mind a career that you want to do for the rest of your life. Which is pretty stressful. Being the very indecisive person I am just thinking about that decision gets me nervous. Even though ever since i could remember I planned to be a Pediatrician. Constantly I have these doubts because I know i'm incredibly interested in journalism & writing. Its something I love to do...& it scares me to think that i'll want to change my mind when its too late. My family always pushed me towards the idea of being a doctor, & they arent really aware about my love for writing. So as I think about it now, almost a senior in high school I start to worry...but then I remember nothings set in stone, & eventually I'll find the right career for me :)

xoxo That girl Dee. :)

Whats Beautiful?

A size double zero model with blue eyes and perfect skin is deemed beautiful, but only because society considers it beautiful. Thats the reason why girls like me are constantly insecure about their weight and appearance. Always dieting, counting calories, constantly stressing out...it sucks. I'm not over weight and i'm not skinny, but still I worry about my weight. I cant stay on a diet to save my life, and i'm not the person to exercise...ever. But if I were to eat healthy and start to workout I really hope it would be for me, and not for anyone else. I want be healthy because I want to feel better about myself. Theres wanting to be healthy, and then theres obsessing...two totally different things. But weight is just one of the many things that not only girls but boys have to worry about being judge on. I think people need to take a step back and realize how unique & beautiful they are in there own way... :) 

BUT if you want to lose weight and start to be healthy here some small normal tips to follow: 

•  NO SODA OR SUGARY DRINKS!
• Try to eat less amounts of bread. 
• Choose the apple instead of the doritos
• Try workout challenges, like the squat challenge, the ab challenge, little things that make a difference :) 

xoxo That girl Dee :)

Daily Image

Insecurities haunt us all, but hold your head high...you're beautiful. 

xoxo That girl Dee. :) 

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To all those girls like me who are hopeless romantics...

I found this picture, & since i'm kind of a hopeless romantic this actually got to me. I think other teen girls similar to myself could use this. So another thing i'm adding to post daily is a picture that either i can relate to or makes me smile or anything that i like. 

xoxo That Girl Dee :)